Spreading myself thin

Taking on too much is always a problem with myself. I find that I am often unable to realize how deeply invested I am in the various projects I pick up along the way. School and work are two of the most powerful time saps in my life, but I rarely feel the challenge from either of those. I find myself looking for challenge in picking up and accepting projects from the world around me. The pattern repeats itself – I feel unchallenged, I pick up a project, pick up another and another and another and so forth until I have myself so deeply submerged into the added responsibilities that I eventually burn out and give up on everything.I am currently working at about 60% of my ability, and I’ve been ignoring my tasks for long enough. I have to spend a few minutes organizing myself and getting the projects I have been working on over the last year or so, and id like to bring you with me.

This is probably my favorite of all the PHP applications I have ever worked on, and shockingly is the one I need the most, regardless of the fact that I do not work on it often enough. It contains many tools that this site as well as many of the projects that I have accepted need, and I hope that I will be able to really focus on it in the coming months.

I really am at a loss for what to say about this project. Initially I wanted to build out a military simulation for UT3, but the team I had brought together dismantled itself pretty well and banging away at UT3 only has a few benefits that working with Ogre3d doesn’t provide. I am pretty well burned out on the topic of working on UT3. Its steady progress into the Console valley is quite disheartening. While I stand firm in my faith that I can do anything with it I’m thinking about branching the OMS project into something a bit more interesting and simpler to maintain. As with most everything I accept under my wings, it will never die. The fact of the matter is I just do not feel confident that I will be able to create the game, at least not as it deserves to be created without a dedicated team.

An attempt to put YAPB (Yet Another Paste Bin) into circulation and end the process of building a web application. I have probably built 40 websites in the past 7 years, and of them many have been taken down or gone the way of god. Ill have this one done in a couple weeks (end of April at the far end).

The rest of my projects have been sloughed off. I am going to be devoting my time and energy to these projects, exclusively.